If you can’t remember melody very well, you are like me and rely on reading notation. If you are like my son and can you play by heart. Paying attention may be more challenging if you read then if you play by heart. That’s not a bad thing of course.
If you can’t remember melody well, you will likely be less certain sometimes about what version of note to play–meri, kari, etc. Try listening carefully to feel which sounds best to you. In the final analysis, there is never any right way to do anything. Even what appears to be complete wrong can flip or evolve into the ‘right’… and visa versa.
Chapter 58 of the Tao Te Ching speaks to this fuzzy side of reality.
When its politics are boring, its people are honest.
When its politics are scrutinized, its people are imperfect.
Misfortune, yet of good fortune its resting place.
Good fortune, yet of misfortune its hiding place.
Who knows such extremes? It’s not mainstream.
Mainstream turns to strange, Good turns to evil.
The people have been long confused.
Thus, the wise are upright, yet not cuttingly so.
Honest, yet not stabbingly so.
Straightforward, yet not wantonly so.
Honorable yet not gloriously so.